I LOVE kids and i knew my heart would break for the kids in the orphanage. I figured i would get to africa and just feel depressed for the life they were living, and the little they had.. but soon after being in uganda i realized the Lord had a much bigger truth to teach me. The Lord changed my heart to be more like the children in Bethany Village. Their satisfaction was only found in the Lord. As my thoughts were consumed by what was going on at home with my mom, a little girl in the house i worked in came up at clung to my leg. With the biggest smile on her face she would run and play but at the end of the day go back to her house with no mom and dad and worship God through music and prayer. She was 5 years old but was no afraid to pray aloud and proclaim what the Lord has done for her. Her prayer struck me hard.. with her eyes closed so tight and a little green dress that was ripped down the side, she thanked the Lord for blessing her with EVERYTHING she needed. She thanked him for life, protection and a house to live in. She had no parents, a couple of outfits and when it came time to eat a little bowl of food. Wow was i convicted. This little girl was teaching me truths i thought i would teach them. I thought i would tell them over and over that Jesus loves them and has a plan for each one of their lives, but she taught me with the way she lived that the Lord was completely in control and she didn't doubt that the least bit. I was immediately reminded of the verse where we are called to be like children. (Matthew 18) Unless we turn and and humble ourselves to become like children we will never enter the kingdom of heaven. The week and a half that we had with the kids flew by.. it was so hard to leave them, but it was so amazing to observe what the Lord was doing through each of the auburn students there and the children in Bethany Village.
After leaving Bethany Village i got sick with little did i know, parasites. I was miserable the entire last week there, but i realized there was still a purpose for the last week there. Passion Kampala was about to start and i had to refocus. When first getting there i experienced something that i was not planning on feeling. Walking through the field where thousands of college students would be the very next morning, i caught sight of the stage where Louis Gigglio and Francis Chan would share the gospel with the students, my eye also caught a scaffold that huge over the stage. I felt immediately paralyzed. I couldn't walk or talk. All i felt like i could do was breath, but my breathing was fast and abnormal. I started getting weak and had to just sit and think. I was thankful that my doctor had made me go through some post-traumatic counseling because i remember what they told me to do when i felt paniced. I prayed and conviced myself that what happend the year before would never happen again. I was already weak from not eating and my stomach was still hurting, but it was totally a God thing that when the conference started i felt fine. The conference was such a huge thing to grasp. It was the biggest conference that Passion had ever put on. There were so many chances that we had to love on the people and just get to know them and pour into them.
It was hard to make the most of the rest of the time i had in africa when i was constantly getting sick. but i got back to the states alive =) and with more that i had ever expected to learn.
sorry it took me so long, i wish i could tell yall every story!
i love yall and cant wait to see yall so soon!!